Saturday, October 29, 2011

...


my heart pained , in screams it suppress this unended pain
oh do u knw how i smile ,
i smile with pain,
i laugh in pain
i see nnthng , fo this haze never let me..
can u feel, the suppressed cries, the brutal biterness
these angers, these hloud shouts,
i mask my pain
and it emerges like a full blooming sun, in flare....
yes i lost respect in love, i lost me
can u ever let me find what i need
myself?


hiramalik

Sunday, October 16, 2011

powerless

the stance of one glimpse,
I halt it there,
That makes me powerless in my strength,
I hold it in round circle,
To revolve with swiftness,
When edges are rough, and clouds on thunder...
The trance in pain, i pour the wine in my soul's vessel,
and drink it naive , feel the potency ,
My tongue though soring, my heart yet dozing...
Painful remark leave hilarious trace on my parts,
Scratch them not,
i hold the cart,
For its sweetness is more addictive than the celeberations around...

Hiramalik

scented

i perspired with my heavy breaths,
At the end of journey tiresome, hardships many,
I breathed heavily,
When my eyes scum the visionary feel,
With haziness million, with fadeness many..
I held in my hand the written scribble,
with words thousands, beats many..
O breeze, fresh breeze,
Take off my tiring robe away,
I know this heart cant be sold,
Nor the soul can be replaced,
Neither i wished to abandon these passionate lovers,
For the verses in their rhythm,
The notes in the flute,
Hover on me ,and blessings they shower...
But,
the body cage is getting weary,
My hands tremble so my face is scary,
The blood in my veins now rush in vain,
Replace it fo i wish badly to incarnate...
O holy water, o flowy river,
Sprinkle on my decadeness the purity of souls,
i am suffocating again, i am becoming insane,
For the fresh sunrise, for God's sake,
Unfold my folds, make me sane!



Hiramalik

i cant sham my real self

silences are never meant to be broken , fo they are like such deep oceans that talk in their own languages, likewise ripples of fearless stream they flow from one heart to another playing chords many- u can never compare the final composition with symphony of bethoven even....Smiles, laughter are such a beautiful expressions bestowed on us and our mind processed to learn their imapct, that if for a second we loose them, many diseases will get hold of our miserable self inside out in a second... I do pretend many times, for the sakeness of escape, but than i keep on heaping up piles that every day turn out to be a huge ,stubborn mountain, never willing to change its place....
Tday in morning i woke up half sleepy and suddenly i overcame my mind full of thoughts, it started galloping like a stubborn horse and i lost my temper, fierce got hold of me and i hushedd it forcefully, after a mutual fight of few minutes in bed i overcame the rageness of my full mind and pushed it deep in calm silent sea.....my body enslaved the present moment, held it like a shiny pearl and it energised my paralysed mind with blossoming feel.... sun was same as as it arises in every morning but tday it talked to me in very different language ,tld me the story of its uprise, and spelled me with its wonder....
ppl talk of my bright side and some point at my dark aspect... I never have intended to stay in between but sometimes too much brightness blind the vision and u look for darkness badly....
Life to me everyday is an adventure, but alongside i wish for stability, may be the forces will have to replace my restless soul for i never can imagine of stagnant feel again when after sincere prayers ,diring efforts i am bathing in light from open window of my silent home....
Give up, but with dignity, so the loosing feel worship u not to knock at ur door with command.....

Hiramalik

abduction in one night's tale

ecstasy is as notorious as auctioning ur body for sale....

night, love, heart, ache
Smoke, burn, smoke ,burn
Beating low, thoughts haphazards,
Smoke,burn, smoke burn...


Insanity is as desireable sometimes as every breath we take unconsciously....

Smile, gone, tears,on
Ashes,on fire, ashes, on fire
Sounds ,low, sensitivity,gone
Ashes ,on fire, ashes ,on fire

I dust my clothes in trance, but has it ever removed the stains so dark?

Helplessly,torn, wishing,not to be born,
violence, screams, violence, screams
intensity, sworn, restlessnes ,gone
Violence, screams, violence, screams...

I held my haead with both hands,how the lowness pushes u deep in grave even when u alive.. i no have courage...

Street lights, off, pathways,halt
Go on,nver stop, go one, nvr stop
Left overs,burnt,forgotten faces, abort
Go on, nvr stop, go on, nvr stop...

Sometimes u have to drag urself out of the dark long night, it is wat life all about...

Hiramalik

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aay ehsaas ,shama-e-dil main dob ja,
Bay misaal, bay-intiha, bay-sabab, bay-wajah,
Mjhay bay rukhee say jawab mila, meray dard ko ikk jahan mila.............
Khamosh nigahon main chupay sawaal,chup zuban pay rukay jawaab,
Jab waqt uth, toofan thama,naan main rha,naan tou mila.......
Socha jo kabhee likha buhat,chahat main azaab saha buhat,
Yun shahr-e-muhabbat main dhondta rha,naan amaan milee naan khuda mila.......
Andaaz buhat, teray waswason main pausheeda raaz buhat,
Hosh hoa tou sajday main gia,Par naan khana-e-but say koe jawa mil........
Is dil kay kia kahnay, ab dharakta hai tou poch kar,yunhee,
Sab kuch tou tum nain gawa dia, iis dasht-e-sahra main tmhain kia mila........
Naan ik bond serab hoa, naan ikk lamha qaraar hoa,
Jaisay marqad kay daaman main siyah raat,naan hisaab hoa,naan azaab mila......

Hiramalik

..........

aay ehsaas ,shama-e-dil main dob ja,
Bay misaal, bay-intiha, bay-sabab, bay-wajah,
Mjhay bay rukhee say jawab mila, meray dard ko ikk jahan mila.............
Khamosh nigahon main chupay sawaal,chup zuban pay rukay jawaab,
Jab waqt uth, toofan thama,naan main rha,naan tou mila.......
Socha jo kabhee likha buhat,chahat main azaab saha buhat,
Yun shahr-e-muhabbat main dhondta rha,naan amaan milee naan khuda mila.......
Andaaz buhat, teray waswason main pausheeda raaz buhat,
Hosh hoa tou sajday main gia,Par naan khana-e-but say koe jawa mil........
Is dil kay kia kahnay, ab dharakta hai tou poch kar,yunhee,
Sab kuch tou tum nain gawa dia, iis dasht-e-sahra main tmhain kia mila........
Naan ik bond serab hoa, naan ikk lamha qaraar hoa,
Jaisay marqad kay daaman main siyah raat,naan hisaab hoa,naan azaab mila......

Hiramalik

in love n only love


 i shield my heart with so many faces
like a layer on layer
the feel of being captivated ,the desire of being shielded
i find in hands many, hold them embrace them...
yet the world of clouds raining fiercely,
like tears dripping on hearts cold,
melt it, burn it, for the sensitivity of that love has lost its hue
and i am working again,breathing again on same note of lameness...
i spread the rug on my ragged soul,
the walls held me from my back to the garden of blackk flowers,
and i forgot to taste the purity in enlightment of the bright light...
they talk of eternal world,where light travels only
in body in souls, in minds in hearts,
where words disappear and beat talk in respect,
out of love,in passion
in fire of hell, they burn
gleefully in dignity of ecstatic run,
in love and love and love!!
hiramalik

a very strange world

my mind is stammering since the time i read the sacred belief, when my heart started galloping and my soul got unreined... I can never define myself on basis of scriptures if my heart is shunned and stubborn ,and mind occupied wd thoughts and fears of sawab and gunnah....

If i revolve around kaaba, i do for my soul yearns for its essence, not coz scriptures define it as some prayer... If i face towrads green tombs against the hot blzaing wind, its coz my inner outer is passionate in his love and my eyes teary for they repent on not seeing the glory of that great man called the man of wisdom, the last Prohet with complete message, not coz his tombs are sacred in some specific religion ....

Love is such a beauty that can never be described by saints nor can be felt by just following the commandments.... The religion if does good ,it does worst too sometimes, amulgamating ur mind in statistics of gunnah and sawab, rather letting u feel the beauty of love, the healing of spirituality and the long lasting impact of the ecstasy in passion...

If i were to ask to worship hell for their resides the vision of my heart's love, i will for whole life enlighten its beauty with the fierce burn....

When in love, u forget being a human, or an animal.... A state divine, a condition undescrible , a sacrifice done whole heartedly, even when whole world bending down wd respect and holy scriptures are announced in giant monuments of races many with religions to follow.... For its a v strange world!

Hiramalik

a deep night

O the Bestower,
I wonder,
How night flows from one arm to another,
From one heart to another,
In silences, in heaps of wandering,
And i find u unconsciously in my sleeps..
O the Giver,
I wonder,
How herth burns itself in between pained feels,
To dicard the burdening of rotten weeds,
When breaths are held for fear of awakening the dead silence.....

The talking of nights, the stories untold,
I repeat in saintness, i act in my shameness..
my body bruised, my soul trembles,
My hands shaky, my gait shamble,
For the night is lingering slowly ,
And intensity has penetrated
deep the vision of awkward faces,
Smiles of sinful hearts,
Shadows of demon's traces...


Hiramalik

another orchestra ending lazily

caress my crumpled thoughts,they r taking wild turn,
I am mixing them in ashes grey with taste of coal fire,
Whisper them the song serene,the tunes of joy and celeberation,
as the black water is getting stinky of drowning of stagnant attire..
u are magician, u have powers to create magic,
Ur eyes erase the tiredness, ur touch vanishes thoughts tragic...
Can u hold the numb shield in field of icy feels?
Sun has arisen from the face of East,
streams are singing the song of zest,
Make me melt too, make me in shape of irregularity again,
For the rigid robe is now paining making holes
Drenching me in piercing rain...

Hiramalik

a call for rising sun

O imprinted feel ,the permanent and constant delusion,
Call me back to those cities with clean roads,
Where flowers blossom with purity,
And night falls with intentions of deep sleep ...
Where there is one who can understand the talk of my restless heart,
I am beggar to my soul and my heart feeds,
The yearnings ,the burnings it keeps...
I revolve and swirl ,for the riddles unsolved,
And in this search, i am gleefully surrendering to my unknown belief...
Lower down, surrender ur vaues or so called traditions,
For the hearts's seeds those irrigated with tears of repent,
Can only be reaped,shall only be bent....

Hiramalik

wo khayal meray khawabon ko torr daita hai

aay gardash-e- waqt
Tham ja,
Kay kuch lamhay mjhay yaad karnay hain
Is anthakk musaafat main dobtay soraj kay,
Aur khawahshoon kee daivi ko
Daboona hai tere sochon kee ganga main...
Aaj misihaii ka marham, naan hee muhabbat ka lams,
Is aaag ko bujha pay ga,
Is shiddat ko sahla paay ga..
Toofan thama, aur saans kee dauri,
Meray wajood ko chaid karay jatee hai,
Un muqayyad lamhon ko mere muthhi say napaid karay jaate hai...
Kaash!Khusboo say khayal ko munjamid kar saktii,
Kay ab ehsaas hoay b ikk arsa beet gia,
Or wo lams aaj b meray sarhanay, kaee yaadain samaitay,
Har raat kuch baaton kee dorain thamay,
Meray khwaboon ko torr daita hai....

Hiramalik

shanasaee

sabhee yaad kartay hain
Uskay khayal main guzaree har shaam,
Aur mjhay
Apnee hee nazron say
Wo chahra chupana mahaal lagta hai,
Jaisay ikk taveel musaafat kay baad,
Piyaas ruh ka sahra ban jay,
Or qainaat sirf ikk qalmay ka andaaz ban jay...

Khaak aur qadam,
Aaj b jab safar kee thakka-an kee gard ko sajda kartee hn,
Tou ikk awaaz meray jism-o-ruh ko jakarr kaitee hai,
Aur muhabbat phir lahoo main gardash kartee hai,
aur zindagii apnay wajood pay fakhar kartee hai...

Shuula' ban-na aur ban kay mitt jana,
buhat farq hai meray dost ,
Ishqq main parwaaz say guzar jana,
Aur muhabbat main intiha pay nazar aana...
Aasman kee wussat naan paa sakee,
Naan hee samandar kee gahrae is raaz-e-dil ko,
jismain tum ko yaad rakhna aur khud ko bhol jana...

Hiramalik

building is done to be broken at the last


i am notorious in making and breaking of feels
when the labourer burns his sweats
and building is complete...........
i am worst in breaking the blocks
when the healer heals the hearts
and sings lullaby to wild fock.......
i am bad in disrupting emotions
when the lover burns candle
and i turn them on fire for fear of being drawn.....
i feel emotions stay in every moment-- i wish i cud find the feeling of being feeling-less..
i grabbed handful of pearls,shine was remarkable
i faced the mirror ,stayed puzzled to be unswerable..
words leave the trace of my written scriptures,if,
the blankness wud turn me mute, the burden unshakeable....
GOD is here, i have lost the face...
O dervish,the garden was once filled with flowers of hope
u have lost the trace!!
O saint, the herat once stayed bewildered,in constant search,
now u wander in  fields so faint
O prophet, hold the burning scriptures of ur prophecy,
the congestion has held the hearts so lofty!!
in between these ,once u loose the saintness, u are not marked as dead-- still there stays a space in ur vast soul to build a new block!!
building is done to be broken at the last!!
hiramalik 

aagahi

bay sbaatee bhee ho magar aisee naan aay meray maseeha,
Kay dard kee khwahish karay aur zakhm bhe mil jay...
Koe tou pochay ja kar bay-chain saba ko,
Yay mumkin hai kaisay kay muhabbat main dard-e-dil naan jay....
aay saaqi-ay-waqt, aay raaz-e- muhabbat,
Is ehsaas kee tamanna main koe kuen mjhay mulzim tharaay....
Sard hawa har raat sannatay main milaap kartee hai mjh say,
Kaisa basaira qabarsataanon main, koe tou issay samjhay....
baat hai un-kahee, ehsaas hai un -suna,
Apnee hee rooh ko tarapta dekhay, jiss bay-bassi pay apna hee dil bhar aay....


Hiramalik

earth on travel

i looked around with wave of disappointment,
faces downtrodden, hearts puzzled,
I sat on the floor, with hands spread,
Nothing was bestowed, nothinn given..
I looked at the running hazel,
Imprinted designs, marks haphazards..
Thunders of clouds, not even for once got ragged,
For the despise already on move, earth on travel...

Hiramalik

understandings

will u understand what written in between the lines,
The constant smiles...?
likewise an ocean deep, plays with its waves,
Quietly!

Hearts never lies, nor does the feeling interpret wrongly,
for it let u walk through doors hard, and it cares not of being mocked...

sleeve up the stairs, yes my love, keep on shedding tears,
as tday another soul perished unattended, another door closed in fears...

Hiramalik

mumkin nhn tera ab musilmaan rahna

shauq-e-imaamat main ikk waqt aisa aaya
kay namaaz parhtay parhtay main khud ko kho aaya....
Sajda kia tou khuda kee jagah paya ussay
Yay kaisa junoon ,yay kaisee ulfat,jo khud ko naan samajh paya...
Har takbeer pay gonjtee hai awaaz uskee, har qalmay pay laita hon naam uska,
Is junoon kay aagay yun shikasta paa, naan manzil nazar aae naan rasta nazar aaya...
Aay wahshat-e-dil mumkin nhn tera ab musalmaan rahna,
Kay jab nazar bhe uthee,tou qibla nazar aaya ya chahra nazar aaya....

Hiramalik

a lame note

i wonder y world never ends on so much deception around.... One cums fo u are presentable and than run away fo u show ur inner face.... It is deception of being cheated by cheater to his ownself...
V all in life at some moments do change our priorities, do change the care once fo whom we did alot.. And its all a natural phenomena,,i guess human species needs to do this fo its survival...
Ppl fade away so their faces...thng is a blessed one comes out of tormented feel, and the other is on trial fo rest of his life ,mostly...
Feelings are such a great nourishment to soul that holds u in its arm like a mother, a strong bonding, a great sense of captivity....
Thng is we erase name or replace name with other one in life ,but that slab belongs to one whose name was frst ecncraved on its face...

Hiramalik
(in sense of disfigured uprooting)

counting infinite

sometimes,
Sometimes!
Oh my heart,
Sometimes,
I sit and count minutes passing,
Seconds running,
And wonder on change of nights,
Such rapid fire of warm days,
And the rush of blood,
Continuously,
And i get amazed on moving of life,
On and on,
Without halt,
Without pause...
And sometimes my friend,
I stop counting days,
To feel the heave of such burden of massive feels,
Those direct towards my solemn heart,
To make me realize,
The value of being,
The value of me,
And i wrap my fingers,
Look at the diamonds shining in silent night,
And forget the counting,
In perplexed state under cover of infinite stars!

Hiramalik

so far in ups and downs

so far,
In lands of strangers
I stayed and befriended the names many,
acquaintance drowned me in ocean of deep thoughts,
And i forgot to face the haphazard waves,
beacame layers of bewilderment...
Deep down in ocean deep,
I found quieteness at its peek,
And faces unknown,
Plunged in nests of their own,
Silently!
I abandoned company of crowded mind,
And pangs of thoughts that followed me whole my life..
I closed eyes,
For the dust of past pinched me atlast,
And i sighed!
In lands of waters, my fertile heart, serene mind,
Planted roots many ,of life,
To make me find,
puzzles unsolved, my traces dissolved...
a jammed time or a paused dream,
They disappear atlast,like a mellowed stream...
Hearts do shine, souls do dance,
light appears atlast, life comes out of trance...

Hiramalik

pandemonium

love is not the requirement, it is one of the mandatory need, like all vitals, it is one of the parameters to describe u alive or dead...

today,fine morning sun, embraced my little heart- giantness is not in size but the generosity!

I always talk of nature-nomatter how much i try,i can nvr scratch these clouds, rain, sunshine, moonlite affects from my soul-they are its food!

I smiled continuously staring at some unknown points...some smiles keep u alive in ur continuity....

Long its been i touched blue clouds and shiver out of joy...and still it rains.. I wonder y?

I wrote a letter fo a red letter box at the end of my street.. redness is connecting me to writing...

U cant put conditions on ones heart, u cant make principles fo ones feels, u cant give advises to control the unbearable pain- for its not a curable disease, its a joyful recovery...

amalgum on busy streets of my city, makes my dead quiet.. Where they are heading towards?

long its been i have stopped asking questions.. For the repetition is making me tired...

Hiramalik

bay-hijaab

shaam phir utar aae
Aur waqt kay saa-ay karnay lgay sargoshian phir say ikk baar...
Aaj buhat arsay baad,
Sochon main ikk ajab bay-tarteebi hai,
Jaisay saakit darya main bhanwar khojay,
Khoya hoa ehsaas...
Hijaab main chupee bay-pardagee,
Aaj phir say bay-payaan kar gae,
Mere chupee hoe,gumshuda baas!

Hiramalik

wo dard - e- dil nhn jata

aay sahir-e-waqt,
Aaj bay tarteeb zubaan aur alfaaz pausheeda hain,
In khamoosh lamhon main chupay,
Kitnay guzartay pal,teray bayaan say darzeeda hain...
mjhay aay hakim-e-waqt,
Is dil kay muqabil koe chahra nazar nhn aata,
Jis kee talash main kho jaon,
Aisa maseeha nazar nhn aata...
Shab-e-toor kee siahee ho,
Ya mahtaab kee roshnee thaamay koe pur-sozz lamha,
in aankhon kay rastay mere rohh main koe utar nhn pata...
Aay tareek ,sard raat kay makeeno,
Shamma-e-dil ab jala dalo,
Muhabbat kay rastay main sangsaar bhe hoay,
Magar ishq ka wo dard nhn jata...

Hiramalik

rumi

''in truth,
Everythng and everyone
Is a shadow of beloved,
And our seekings is His seekings,
And our words are His words,
We search for Him here and there,
By looking right at Him.
Sitting by His side
We ask,
O Beloved where is the Beloved! ''

as much as i have read Rumi, heard him, or felt him, even, everyday more i read ,more i feel drenched, humble and out of world...

Souls leave their very strong and powerful affects..their words are divine and let u travel another beautiful word...

I need not to say anything, as his words always speak themselves, and his words are not only the game of alphabets, they are talkings to God, a pathway to embrace Him, a source to find Him, a vision of ur own soul in this dreary ,restless world...

''what strikes the oyster,never harms the pearl''

Rumi( who always have touched my soul deep and made me to whirl in only purest feeling of His love)

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andaaz aisa,bayan aisa
Yay mumkin hee nhn
Kay ishq kee rah main naan ho koe imtihaan aisa...
Jaisay subah kee roshni chamkay,
Jaisay baja-ay koe door khushboo ka raag,
Aisee qurbaton kee tamanna main,
Bay-chain khawab boay araam kaisa....
Wo husn kee baat kartay hain,
Hum tasbeeh parhtay hain la-hasil justujoo kee,
Wo muhabbat main paabandi kay nhn qail,
Hum qaid-e-muhabbat kee baat kartay hain,
Ajab khail hai magar wo asool kee baat kartay hain...
Aur phir,
Is haar jeet ke kashmakash main,
Uska khayal
Ikk tootay hoay khawab jaisa!

Hiramalik

unflinched yet unfamiliar

with set of eve
Mountains melt in beem of moonlight,
Under cover of dark clouds
I stretched my arms lazily....
Breeze of some old moments touched my sweet lips,
And shining armor of deep pain blurred intensely....
Life is so unique, so the lesson it teaches,
Everyday new face exposed, every night another chapter of feel...
I vary my words in between,
Of those promises and infidelity....
Stars shone on face of sky continuously,
To show me the meaning of insanity...
It needs to be forgotten,its fate to be faden,
To pass by the erased sign,to run over the false safety.....
I stretched my arms again out of deep sleep,
May be new ways have beautiful stories to make me see.....

Hiramalik

tonight i broke my voilen

sometimes hearts
Layers by layers,
Rays of rays
Straw by straw
Tears u apart,
difficult to recollect,
Impossible to reshap,
Undone to be refined....

The coldness in my room, and warm wind blowing harshly outside my room's window,both sounding same in their own phase..but i cant hear the echo of sounds...

Tonight on radio,
I tuned the silence into noise,
Sharp sounds, loud music,
And blurring of words ,i despise..
Yet,
I kept on lissening the sounds harsh,
As monotonous screams not fading inside...

I wiped all things, organised messed up room, yet styed emptiness inside me like the empty spaces of my decorated room...

Write on blank,
letter of deprivation, in memory of unfaithfulness...
it made me go silent,
It made my heart sank..
Drowned deep in oceans dark,
I abandoned to rebel the steap..
Yet my feet kissed ripples of stream,
And kept on piling the memories in heaps...

Hiramalik

dhuaan

ajab khushboo fiza main hai
Aaj zameen kee sarhadon kay paar
Jaisay jaltee bujhtee muhabbat kee akharii shaam
Soor phonkhay khud apnii baytaabii ka tamasha dekhay...
Aur chamaktee aankhain rasta kho jain,
Kisee ajnabii dais main bhataktay musafir kee tarah...

Sahra say piyaas ka kia pochna,
Jo ishq main doba ho aur yay chubhan kisse bholay hoay khawab kee maanind,
Kissi gumnaam parinday kee tarah,
Sochay bghair safar kartee jay,
Apnay wajood ko azal say abad kartee jay....
Kia kabhee bay jaan jism bhe bola kartay hain?
Kia sunee hai tum nain marqid kay hujray say koe totii hoe awaaz?
har shaam musafat tay karta hon main,
Aur har shaam iskee shaama,rakh kar daitii hai yay dahakta dhuaan....

Hiramalik

in part of me

in raining of my efforts
The silver hue decorated my forehead
For resurrection...
In paining of my deafness
Delicacy of ur touch made me wear
To hide me in my nakedness...
Bare footed, bare body,
I am measuring the dust on those traces,
That outline my soul,revolve around heart,
And revive me everyday,
From departing breaths of last minute...

Hiramalik

far far away from the front door

something under me, above me ,around me,
a yellow sheath of red colour,
blue hue of black smell...
something i feel, i sense, i hear,
a voice full of cream shaped,
an image under cover of shrieking sound....
something whirl me, swift me, hold me, make me fall,
like a swift line of roller coaster,
like a complicated hold of straight trails...
something in me, of me, under me,
like an alien from the sand of grave,
like a human from the space of sky...
something fearful haunts me ,frightful,
like a ghost friendly holding hand in hand,
like a dracula friend, wiping blood from the corners of lips...
something make me fall, in deep down in holes of asylum,
like a ride on plane in clouds lush green,
like a run on earth with plants dark blue.....

sometimes in my somethings, i pass hands swiftly
to feeel the roughness they create,
to live in the idea that nomore stays...
i stretch my arms, i yawn hard,
the weariness never goes, the tiredness more penetrates...
in my sleeps, i run and jump in ecstasy,
in awakenings, i stay calm and in numb sheath..
sometimes,in my somethings someone hold my hand
to make me travel this world near my footsteps
on lands so far.....
and sometimes i cant touch the lips of my image in hanging mirror on my wall!

hiramalik

sleep

to be awakened by another sleep..

broken

u r a beggar, a dust in dust,
An ash of fire,
A forgotten line,
A fading memory,
for u beg for love, a flame for ur bargained heart, an eye for ur thirsty soul,
A beggar who can nvr own sky, nor ny particle of dust,
A forgotten tale,
A madman's voice,
A voice un-heard,
A broken flute....
even,
More lower down urself,
U are of no worth...

Hiramalik

lost dreamer


my heart, can u hold my heart,
i lay on carpet of thorns in scortching heat
and tearss fall drop by drop,
in ur arms, i dream
in ur eyes, i see, a vision, a feel,
oh the world has set rules again
and i am running away
this moment, that moment
y cant i come out of it stat?
some worldly states bargain your lurching heart
frailing feel,
and loosing is nomore a loss in this disorganised system of life..

anticipate never my strength,
i am the weakest of weakest
fragile in frailings
i fall, and i fall
and world drowns around when i weep and weep...

i look at their eyes, full of emotions,
they talk, and words go silent
but what about my this restless soul?
it wanders around,
it scream aloud,
for the taste of eternal still is very far, and i am wandering as a lost dreamer!!

hiramalik

lost dreamer


my heart, can u hold my heart,
i lay on carpet of thorns in scortching heat
and tearss fall drop by drop,
in ur arms, i dream
in ur eyes, i see, a vision, a feel,
oh the world has set rules again
and i am running away
this moment, that moment
y cant i come out of it stat?
some worldly states bargain your lurching heart
frailing feel,
and loosing is nomore a loss in this disorganised system of life..

anticipate never my strength,
i am the weakest of weakest
fragile in frailings
i fall, and i fall
and world drowns around when i weep and weep...

i look at their eyes, full of emotions,
they talk, and words go silent
but what about my this restless soul?
it wanders around,
it scream aloud,
for the taste of eternal still is very far, and i am wandering as a lost dreamer!!

hiramalik

burning under sun


galloping breaths, i beheld the running away murder of my ecstatic soul,
holding of my trembling body, i held it more strong with sweaty hands,
and night held the stars stronger in its arm...
i am breathing under sun, my mouth opened , my skin burnt,
look at the faces of darkest demon, and celeberation of haunted feels get aloud..
seep through my dreams, where silence occcupies the mansions,
and walking like a dead man, hearts go numb in its core,,
burn the candle, the light though i despise, my eyes blind, yes myy eyes blind,
shut the mouth, words have stopped looking at you anymore...
going away i am fromm the old faces, life is like this, a suffocated building with too many stories,
and dwellers breathe everyday for sake of breaths....


hiramalik

breathing


can u name my existance?
this world gors aloud in taking my name,
my false name,
and i wonder on me..
my shape deformed, my breaths haphazard,
and this world goes silent in exposing my roughness,
and my mouth goes numb,,,....
dream of wat u desire,
this world is like this,
full of fakes, full of sleepers,
so dream on what u desire,
the only salvation to ur fading existance,
the only escape to ur bloody hands....
keep me away from the doors closed,
i have travelled too many unknown distances,
with closed dyes, with no feeels,
and only fake smile accompanied me well..
these companions leave ur hands, when dust is too much,
see nothing, look for no trace,
for the only shape that ever has existed is of URS!!

HIRAMALIK

my only escape


y there is so much blurdness, i looked around
right and left
and pased my trembling fingers on my face
tears are my solemn salvation , i knew
but y today moon is not weeping with my tender heart
and night is singing heavy songs?

this story, my dear friend is ending,
like a bright day drowns in arms of sad eve, 
and tears of ocean engrip it whole,
these light air sending and sending
notions of goodbye, a last farewell,
and weepings are dancing above as fireflies!!

i talk of night, for it is my only escape
in its lap , i cry, in its arms i sleep,
forgetting the loudness of world, ignoring the hurt it inflicts,
without hesitation, wd no fear, in its lap i weep!!

hiramalik

untitled


either a garden of rose
or stages with sharp thornes
i write its name , write and write
and blacken its face
either a slab on graveyard
or broken door of haunted house
i seek through the blindnes, i seek and seek,
either an arm of an empty stranger
or hands of beloved,
i am just a hollow shelf, full of stories untold,
and i seek refuge like blood seeking its way to heart...

hiramalik

Monday, October 10, 2011

kia naam likhon?

mere aaqbat posheeda hai is main,
Kay apnay wajood ko na-tamaam likhon....
Main afsaanay likhon chahat kay teray,
Ya rungoon ka akhrii anjaam likhon...
Wo baat mjh say kartay hain, aur sochon main basta koe aur hai,
Main is tazaad ko dhoka samjhon, ya dil kay auraaq pay koe aur naam likhon...
Mjhay hasratoon nain bujha dia sulagtee rakh jaisa,
qafan bandhay apnii hee marqad pay main kiss kiss qatil ka naam likhon...
mere sochon kay darwazay un-ginat, bay-hisab hain shayad,
khud ko in main dhondtay dhondtay main is apnii talash ka kia naam likhon...

Hiramalik

Sunday, October 2, 2011

kaheen aankhon main shaam utar hee naan jay

bay-awaaz mat rona,Kay hawaoon ka rukh kaheen badal he naan jay,..Aaj raat buhat gahrii hai,Kaheen aankhon main shaam utar hee naan jay...Mjhay awaz milii tou raftar -e-dil madham par gae,Tumharay janay kay baad,In saanson kee raftaar badal hee naan jay....Khayal ajab hain, waswasoon main liptay, khawab jaisay,Kaheen wisaal kee shiddat main hijr ka hassar barh hee naan jay....Aay muhabbat abii anjaam socha naan aghaz dekha,Uskee ibadaat kartay kartay gardash -e-raftaar tham hee naan jay....Un rafaaqton say kahna, hum darwesh sada lgaay bghair guzar jatay hain,Kaheen awaaz kee shiddat say yay zamana sara mar hee naan jay.....Hiramalik

yet i am not tired of moving forward

words play games, un-ended,
Every day ,each night in dreams even,
Essence of daffodils stink even,
Like some rotten pile of garbage.....
I blindly move and run continuously,
In search of tag of piety,
When i am aware very well
The trends of prophecy and revealations of sacred word is obsolete....

I wait for miracle,
For faces to change
Their shapes,
From devils to fairies,
When round the clock i cant see anythng
But dark patches in dreary....
Call me optimist ,or a person with no wisdom,
I keep on moving after every blow hard,
For world is not tired of making me fall again and again...

Hiramalik

a ray


can i manipulate minds,
if i cud, the world wud have never been this brutal
in their breaths,there were  a rhythm,
soft , serene, sensitive, gleam..
i knw the barbarism, i feel the murders,
and this earth suffocates to bear on the walkings of giants....
how many lives gone, how many homes turned into orphanage,
how many seasons bled, how many days and nights cried in pain,
and words never ending, like feelings hover around,
every second new rage, another disappointment in hope ,in sheath of bright ray...
far on sands, remains of ruins,
we make a dream land,out of black fumes,
hailings come and go, thunders in fierceness howl,
snow melting like a volcanoe, hot and ravengeful,
in dreams in eyes, lies only the end of times....
still, yet there is some light, an unknown light,
as in drought land we hope fo the rain
even when clouds have abandoned those ways
fo centuries lost their trails!!
nommater how many yellow leaves got churned under ur feet
after every autumn comes spring sweet.
days are hard, but hope is soft like a silk sheath,
voices are loud, noises do shout,
yet in their screams flows melody in beam....
catharsis stays after every day's cruel astray,
it stir in my blood, it encaptured my in veils.....

hiramalik

far far away from the front door

something under me, above me ,around me,
a yellow sheath of red colour,
blue hue of black smell...
something i feel, i sense, i hear,
a voice full of cream shaped,
an image under cover of shrieking sound....
something whirl me, swift me, hold me, make me fall,
like a swift line of roller coaster,
like a complicated hold of straight trails...
something in me, of me, under me,
like an alien from the sand of grave,
like a human from the space of sky...
something fearful haunts me ,frightful,
like a ghost friendly holding hand in hand,
like a dracula friend, wiping blood from the corners of lips...
something make me fall, in deep down in holes of asylum,
like a ride on plane in clouds lush green,
like a run on earth with plants dark blue.....

sometimes in my somethings, i pass hands swiftly
to feeel the roughness they create,
to live in the idea that nomore stays...
i stretch my arms, i yawn hard,
the weariness never goes, the tiredness more penetrates...
in my sleeps, i run and jump in ecstasy,
in awakenings, i stay calm and in numb sheath..
sometimes,in my somethings someone hold my hand
to make me travel this world near my footsteps
on lands so far.....
and sometimes i cant touch the lips of my image in hanging mirror on my wall!

hiramalik

moving panorama


in this bargain,
i loose me sometimes,
so much, so intense,
that the clouds forget the intesnity of their fiercenes,
and hailings of storms change their ways..
i ask u, y u did it,
so much pain, drop by drop in my veins,
i breathe nothing but pain,
i sense nothng but pain,
so much overwhelming ,intense pain,
that in its sufering i forget my name..
this world so small, tiny more than the fraction of one blink
i dream one night in one phase,
and in other i loose myself freely..
such is the value, so is the charm,
around strong veil of walls,
of those built up castles in minds of sanes.;
i walk on one street, i amalgamate myself in dust of others,
such is the contrast, such rush but in vain;
time is flying so the greyness in my hair,
my face wrinkling, and my heart trembles,
but stars still sprinkle their shine
even in this change of time.....


hiramalik

silver nights

some days old, some nights tired,
In hue silver, in wrap of gold,
I try to run away from the crowdiness of place,
My emptiness push me back, this hollowness let me astray...
Far far away, near to those ways,
I look fo a face, i desire for a dry bay....
Yes, i am in ego, for my heart in pain,
Some shadows never leave, some dark holes never gape....
Even , in my dreams ,in its reality,
I worship love, i hold onto its felicity,
For in sharpness of those memories,
I give away myself to its hold, safely!

Hiramalik

un-tuned fiddle


i wonder on movements ,continuous motions
silent in standings, numb in core,
how rediculous is the exchange of thoughts, building up of broken desires
again,
on naked tree ,how green leaves mark their presence
when autumn steals the ongoing season of multi- colored spring...
rush in heart , run in body,
sometimes tatses nothing, but a transparent sheet..
this is nothing my dear,
yes ,there is much beyond,
secrets untold, whispers unheard....
some evenings are warm , some rains weep,
its a strange world, an enigmatic riddle,
charming story, mysterious tone of melodious fiddle/....


hiramalik

venom


Oh the believer
y u wonder ur prayers surrender
infront of will of face of nature
when ur belief is affirmed and heart recites even in state of numb...


''y, why, ?'
have u ever thought every words has meanings same
but expressions different
likewise my heart beats same everyday
but tone it creates is beyond the symphony of MOZART...

sing if u can, on top of voice
i have clenched my teeth, halted my voice
vessel is narrow, vision is broad,
i cant squint too much more in this battered life...
so sing,
on top of your  voice..

i keep on moving
when i dnt knw the reasons many:
but if u need any reason to live?
again
in delirium i place my feet on edgy rodas
and sleep never leaves the slightest streak....


lets move across the boundaries,
or do they even exist
like a rednes of blood, or like transparent tears
do boundaries restrict the movements actually?
u ask questions too many,
lets crumble the haphazard thoughts, and blow the trumpet of long deep sleep!!!


hiramalik

festive mournings


wishes are remorseful,
not this time, that time
all the time
like clouds without rain, hearts in pain like  a candle unburned
such is the color they create on silent canvass;
make me fall and raise me high
steeps and those heights look alike
shape me in form or deform me in pieces many,
i care not, i care nomore
these r the festive mournings, joy eternal,
pain constant, yearnings unheard....

sky in mid of night decorate its hearts with stars uncountable,
i look nomore on straight paths,night is getting heavy day by day
like my sheepish smile, it is quiet,
confined in cold room of mine,
heavy ,panting, un- ending;
for its a festive mourning,
and celeberation would be made in my sleeps even!!

hiramalik

someday in my lazy days


i would hold ur hand fo telling u the truth
will show u my strength, my standings alone..
ill tell u the story of my joys in inflicted pain
and tears those i hid deep down in dark grave..
some day amongst these lazy days,ill count not the shining armors
but sing song like a sweet nightangle,
words be smooth and strange;
ill dance in my saintness slow  and faint,
someday amongst these lazy days....
am i un-dsireable or a candid one?,i ask my little heart
y u keep space of gigantic ocean
the sweetness of cold stream, warm fire, bright gleem?
my love, in love ,i breathe fresh when ii choke hard
i stand straight when they make me fall,
i smile when dark knight holds my heart....
and someday amongst these days
u wud come to me,  fo my charm
when i be gone,, when this heart be lost!!

hiramalik

taste my blood


contemplate my thoughts,
on roads with no destination,
like a heard without a followers;
any mind can hold onto pain,
any heart can rush like a blood, 
sometimes,in vain , for no reasons,
yet arguements bind like an unknown force
heart to soul;
i stay in me, a stranger to me
busy in worldly things, ignoring those self pleas,
deafness, dumbness like a black night
i hold onto deception again and again;
blinds do scream, dumbs do feel,
but in this hard shell i keep on lingering
numb, helplessly;
i look  fo GOD, my unfaithfulness seals me,
like a prisoner without jail, like a bird enslaved in open fields..
i breathe deeply,
still my lungs congested, for i have lost the faith on moving breeze..
here and there,. north and south
i have lost the point,
like a wanderer unknown , drenched in sweats of self inflicted pain
and vision is lost , footsteps waggle in sweet rain;
bitterness is not what u feel in poison,
taste my blood in some lazy night, ull never feel alive
and ur blood would turn into a dark cold ice!!


hiramalik

composition of a great musician


moments ,these written shared moments
whispering to me,
these rushings , running moments,
un resolved, un ending, un stoppable, 
again murmuring  at this time of night
\o my companion, my absolute unfaithful companion
fo a while hold my hand
and lets find a GOD,
 a maker of universe, knower of ur heart..
seedling inside ur blood, or the cover hard enclosing the shell,
inside out the breathing pattern, or the movement of this red bloody blood.
they say HE swims in like a molecule of air floats in space,
they say again and again
HE stays in middle of nights, in extreme of days
lissening, looking ,understanding...
wat are the these revolvings of times, these naming of exchange,
its all in his hands, these all bow fo HIS pace..
lets find him in these running nights and days.....


pluck my seed out of this so called fertile land,
does it exist ever? universes in universe?
twist my intellect, my understanding i nomore need,
does it happen , the comings and goings of seasons,
the hide and seek of times?
''haha'' i laugh hard everytime i read those description,
intelligent theories of great great minds...
wat stays, wat stayed and wat will stay in these varied COLORS,
ONENESS OF ONE, COMPOSITION OF HIS mesmerising rhyme!!


hiramalik

gained or lost?


these voyages,
like a long long un- ended journey
comprising of many centuries
like galaxies up there,  encompassing thousands and thousands of stars,
such a journey in bizarre,
i pray and recite fo those mirage,
in reality hidden, the harsh brutal reality;
yes the expedition long,.
beyond the travel around this world,
beyond the length of red sea,
i myself in me, look for you and you,
helplessly i walk and walk with naked feet;
robes are torn in this search, or u are lost evenn when destinations are retrieved,
its a strange desire, a mystic feel....
dnt dare to comprehend such intensities,
saints in their insanity burnt the world,
and moon was cut into two pieces;
donot dare to measure those traces,
lovers still hover around,
dance like a mad moth for centuries.in their search
irrespective of any gain or loss...

hiramalik

a cinderella story


i wrote them with all my heart, under stream of severe emotion, flowing under pain, i decorated them with heaviness i adore, with love i endure.... and suddenly light went off from the face of earth , and stars hid their faces....
O my lord, such restlessness this night is keeping today, i am amazed by the thunder in its silence....
this heart all drenched with song of love, even if i try to get over with it, ill die with it.. such is the intensity but the presence never be felt, like an air that moves in between silently..

i kept my heart silent, mouth uttered always harsh words, i kept its sanctity and pride too high to beg, yet it begged in sheer helplessnes.... O god, y din clouds depart the face of sky and revealed its nakedness when on earth i beged fo this divine love?

y hearts have to be pained, when the dweller only adore love? y in so many y's and answers infinite ,it still stays un-answered waiting fo its lover to node? i ask u y u let me wander wen ur origion was love, when ur purpose was love,when u preached the lesson of love, when all these scriptures are based on love, when propecy originated from love, when drunkardnes of dervish is eternal fo love? than y such pain...''O SWEET. taste the harm this sugar contain, ull even enjoy the poison in blood,...its thirst un- limited, pain un- ending, un- bearable yet undesirable..'
'
i look back, and i look forward, yet i wish to stay in between..yes the destination does matter, but this pain is more sweet to me.. guess wat one day these stars wud never decorate the breast of sky and morning of everyday wud never get pregnant with charm of sunlight, even than ill drench my each pore with this pain, fo it has charm more than the story of cinderella and lesson it has taught me such , no dervish wud have learnt in his un- ending whirling!!!

hiramalik

unconsciousness


i never feel like anymore to write all about it
the sheer intensity that once drowned me, and so often comes in heap
wither my heart, or smell the decay of last burn
once it is done, is done...
cracking mirror now hardly speaks, minds shallow and hearts nomore mellow
as if after a hurricaine, silence adores the sleepy harbour..
the sailor of my thoughts sometimes bring me those memories i once lived in,
but too far they are from my slumber sleep....
shiver, or shrieveled, i care nomore,
once i did, in my sheer fall, in bitter feels..
sharpness of thorns, life bestows,and eyes get deprived of sleep.
as if a wine lover has never tasted the joy of calmness in deep..
can u ever define the craving of love, an urge of drug,
my mind blows up like a strong music shrieking, pleaing...
i have lost the voice that once called upon my broken dreams,
for the paths are changed, and faces are erased ,once important those seemed!!

hiramalik

puraani baatain , bay- hisaab yaadain


aur kab raat kay saa'y gahray hogay
pta hee nhn chala,
jaisay qurbutoon main faaslay hon,
an- ginat rakh kay zarron main chupay bhaid jaisay..
saham jana, har bat pay, kay abii tou wo toofan thama hai
aur meray ghar kay aangan main abii b wo tootee shaakhain bikhri paree hain..
ehsaas tha aik bass
aik phol jaisa,
khauf tha bass,
ik awaara abar jaisa
jo  bichar gia...
aay mausam aaj jab un hijar kee hijratoon ko yaad kartee hn
tou wo hanstee muskuraate shaam
waqt kay un chupay andhairon say nikal kar
meray saamnay kharee ho jati hai
wohee sawal, wohee hisaab liay
jo kab kay bujhee rakh main chupa diay main nain, aik qafan kee tarah!!

hiramalik

somewhere inside incomplete


in summers, blossom of upcoming spring
swings on my front door.
and i ask the autumn , y my words diminishing?
tonight, my mind occupied with those spent moment
still i wonder how the fresh air plays outside with dark leaves?
carnival, yes a carnival,
farewell create to my burning heart
like a fading long night outside in stream!!
describe my un-uttered sleepy words
awaken them up 
yes i want to scratch the pain out of me...!!


hiramalik

broken lines i draw


sultry voice of my heart, charms my soul ,hands in hand
like a sting of a snake never let u survive,
die, u have to die in its arms, this world nomore desires of ur presence..
clouds are warms again, and i looked high for the search of stars
in day,
my insanity beholds me, i am more than gleeful fo the range of my rage!!

quietenes bears me thoughtfully like a scholor in deep enigma of unsolved riddle,
value not the shrieking sound of millions of words,i valued them once
they let me sworn to the point of death!
they say innocency in my words is too sharp fo the demon face of my appearance
like a knock on door in silent room, i laugh hard,
echo the sound of hussshhhh from my heart ,'' they say, for they are hurt by an act of a slut''

let me sing a song, nt a mystical, neither a sweet one
let me scream hard, not in shy, neither in hesitancy
let me say wat i want, the growl of nature's sound
the words i never uttered, the feel i hid behined the seven curtains!!

hiramalik

insanely wed

and than whole day got merged in silnces of night,
Another life, another story of a new chapter begins,
Under sounds of fresh bangles, golden spark,
Redness around embrace hands of darkness all night long...
A color of strange, neither black nor red tinged,
But voices different, feels varied, and whipsers with heavy breaths....
the life that is spent is forgotten under cover of new silence,
Where quieteness talks, minds paint new picture,
Face of unknown!

Insanity has held me long ago, my body jolts,
My minds furious, thoughts on fire,
Yet the fight between my insanity and wisdom still lingers on, in my red attire,...
They say , ' this home is quiet now from shrieking sounds,
Yet whole night long, my mother stayed awake,
Under curtain of fears, doubts , astray''...
Insanely wed i am, my body manipulated with golden spark silver hue,
And i am finding myself again in new life , still the one on due!


Hiramalik

i a spectator dance on a stage

sometimes waves in rage never find their ways,
Like gypsy out of mind, with ramble thougts,
They juggle around and strike the grey shore,in rots....
Wanderer of souls, searchers of light,
Burn and burn, like a wandering moth...
With strange enigmatic gaze ,i look at them, their moves,
The seductive words they uttter, the caressing part they do,
And like a numb statue, i look at the system of life, the flow of desire,
melting under uncontrallable fire...
In a crowd i play on stage. But my eyes are fixed,
On randomness of stalkers moving on bed of hays,...
I wonder how lust control minds, empower the green sign,
And dark clouds never move along above the fragile throne of everyone's mind,
When rain is heavy and shelter itself is drenched with sheer tiredness,
And i as a spectator dance under thunder of clouds,
with gaze fixed on random stalkers in search of dim light....


Hiramalik

insanely wed

and than whole day got merged in silnces of night,
Another life, another story of a new chapter begins,
Under sounds of fresh bangles, golden spark,
Redness around embrace hands of darkness all night long...
A color of strange, neither black nor red tinged,
But voices different, feels varied, and whipsers with heavy breaths....
the life that is spent is forgotten under cover of new silence,
Where quieteness talks, minds paint new picture,
Face of unknown!

Insanity has held me long ago, my body jolts,
My minds furious, thoughts on fire,
Yet the fight between my insanity and wisdom still lingers on, in my red attire,...
They say , ' this home is quiet now from shrieking sounds,
Yet whole night long, my mother stayed awake,
Under curtain of fears, doubts , astray''...
Insanely wed i am, my body manipulated with golden spark silver hue,
And i am finding myself again in new life , still the one on due!


Hiramalik

chasing some forgotten rhymes


and i am tired, sheer tired,
like summer drench u in its arms, twist u with breathtaking sweats
i am such tired in bones, deep en-rooted,
chasing the forgotten rhymes,
making a song sweet from haphazard notes,
and plucking the string at wrong tym;
hearts never forget wat it feels,
the pain, or joy, or fears, or heavy sheath,
yes heart never forgets wat it feel..
my heart is in such state of whirling,
where agony embraces laughter with joy,
unharmed both loyal to such royal sleep;
i call upon the desert parching fo the last drop of rain,
my feet engraves the face of earth with its shade,
rapidly i walk, trembling like a feeble stalk,
and i walk!!
some thoughts i shun, like a shadow u adopt,
some words i erase, like a frst blue ray,
some faces i forget, like a rotten sunset,
and moth in black smoke is never tired of dancing in a foggy rain!!


hiramalik