unrevealed!!!

a velvet feel or a hard desire

i just linger on in between ,in search,

yes its in intense mode, behind the open doors

and my vision is getting narrow to the point of deep sleep..

o lord i pray , i bend my head,

but still i dnt knw

wat to say;

my heart  sparks, my soul barks,

unknown enigma is still unsolved;;

quieteness,!! can anyone comprehend u,

i lissen loud music to overwhelm ur wonder...

souls if nt beaten in search of search,

its like a useless candle unburnt..

i desire to go away, rush away, scream loud

and loud 

and loud,

but the edges too sharp to gallop

to swallow this whole gulp........

lights at nights cover the warm streets

in hot nights,

and i see vivid colors, smiling ,silent, blurred..

like a gypsy i everynight measure those paths

again and again

same those measurements i calculate

till i fall sleep.

wat is use of writing, repeating those harsh blowing words again and again

everyday i ask, every day i need my heart to explain..

y not these tears now find their ways,

the heaviness is eating me up,  and i am loosing my ways,..

i am fed up trying and pretending,

skies up there now ask me nothing in satire,

the taunts in its eyes, the laughs in its thunder

now i drink even when i am on spark of fire..

destruction is done, wat are u finding more to surrender,

let go away in different world,

or wrap the cold pathways,

my feet numb;

walking is done, running is made,

i lost my insanity in desire to become sane;

and when everythng is evaporated ,

i am here still lingering on but fainted!!

hiramalik