promise

night lingers on,

lazily the comrade kissed my hand

in the dark tone of its shield,

and i cried in my saddening note, lurching the heart beat,

enthralling my murmuring,

the words never uttered, the tone never heard!!

moonlite today, on my hand, writing its name

and my companion lay down besides my trembling body,

''look at the stars, my love, they coming down to decorate ur face,

the ornaments of my love has brightened the heart of urs to extreme,

the pain it encaptures will pump it forever,''

and i zip my lips , for words i have abondoned long ago in such intense pain...

and in between this thin line,

i walk on and on, dreaming,

and my comrade again kiss my hand to bid me forever,

with those lazy tones, in shedding of white moonlight,

gleaming like a diamond in dark shield,

and i sigh, and promise never to cry!!

hiramalik

where soul and heart wed each other

in the saintness of mountains, for the call of love

the respect, the truth, i surrender all at once

on my knees, i plea and plea,

and skies weep on this beholding of me, the pain sheltering inside the warmth of its core,

this thick shield of body ,that adores!!

the moments of peace, the times of serenity,

somewhere inside me, is calling sheepishly,

and i am flowing  along this river 

to the infinity!!

the mountains now melt down like a silent volcanoe,

and i sleep with my eyes close, with the dark field,

shining of night, and my dance in ecstasy,

i am panting now, i am breathing heavily!!

the rush of blood, this intense heat,

my heart is reciting u my love, with its each beat!!

moments again have captured me, and i am floating in far lands,

where neither body is worshiped, nor the words heard,

but soul and heart wed each other, and make love fiercely!!1

hiramalik

from the silence of air

my feet, O the admirer, they have lost the feel of earth

and leathery skin of ur touch is burning my soles, 

the emptiness inside is getting filled with ur wine

and the affect is so overwhelminig that i am drowning and drowning..

deep in my thought there lingers on one picture

and imprint of hurt is now sinking down, 

from top to deep down in steaps...

smoothen out my shattered hair, this night is too short

and this pain too heavy to bear it all,

the numbering of breaths,and counting of coming and going of life

i am fed up today,

of such haphazardness and randomness,

finding and finding

till these flames turns out to be in fumes,

and u never find ashes from the silence of air, anymore, anywhere!!

hiramalik

another reality or long un-ended dream

in sickness i see dreams many

roaming from one face to another

faces many, voices diminishing

fading to this extent!!

i wonder on relapse of thoughts

coming again and again,remitting, decreasing,recessing

some moments in dream turns off the reality

so strongly, in insanity rather screaming

u stay quiet with long pause in deep silence...

moving from one hand to another, i kept on dreaming

chasing faces, finding him, finding me...

such weird dream in no land, where voices even leaves ur hand

like of 17th century old monument

u wonder on ur wandering,

such heaviness encircled me,

and i kept on searching and searching.....

and than ringing of bell to bring me to reality,!!

i wonder how much ill miss those words and feet and hands and eyes,

and long drives in silence of nights,and than that deep long silence itself..

i wonder how much ill miss those roads, where i moved on with naked feet , sandles in hands,

and never cared of pebbles tickling my soles, but in juvenile of that love,

i moved on and on...

i wonder where i am heading towards,

another reality or a long un-ended dream!!!

hiramalik

companion

flow in thousands of stars, water drops

and ocean ask me of my name, i flow carelessly with my arms wide open

with windy wind, and morning sunlight

moon asks me my identity, and i forget

and flow with the calmness and song my heart sings....

in my childhood dream, in those fairy lands

i fly for a beautiful land, where i have no name

and no identity,where no one ask me either,

no norms, no religion, no bonds

and i fly as a free soul!!

yes,

its around the corner of my eyes, they weep like a newborn child,

in my own fears ,i hold it tight,

fear of cold, and death, of hunger of lonesome thoughts,

i desire to fall from heights,

or to touch the ends of skies,

but than fears hold me tight

like i hold this new born child!!

hiramalik

kay tum zinda ho

har lamhay main muqayyad har saa't

ager mahsoos karo,

aur hawa ka lams tmharee udhree saansoon main ghul jay

naee zindagii ban kar,

aur agre shama' kee lo' main b tmhain mahsoos ho andhaira,

jaisay bikhree raat main aik sahma chaand ho

jaisay

har bahaar kay baad khizaan kee naveed daita koe bichra hoa

hara neeela toota ho patta, kisse ujree shaakh ka,

ager har taan pay dharkay dil koe naya saaz liay,

aur ankh nam hotii ho tanhai kay kuch lamhon main,

yadon kay wo saaz abii bhe ager tmhain raat ko jgaatay hon,

tou jaan laina

tum zinda ho!!

hiramalik

pre-destined

i am drowning baby..

deep 

deep

deep

deep

 deep....

its unlimited...

its un-ending.

its full of colors

red blue yellow orange,

its all very deep, in blues,

its all very cold, yet unfelt,

its all very smooth, yet very light,

its all like i am diving in air, its all like i am feathery...

close ur eyes,

close them,

and float in it, with me, hand in hand,

speak not, care not, worry nothing, see not,

i am all here hand in hand, floating with u,

breathing every moment, feeling it, feeling u...,

somedays passed so heavily, i look back at them,

i look around up, down , front and back, all the way, i twist,

and i see nothing, find nothing,

but a space,

where i can write and make shapes, 

of my choice

and than erase them in a second,

like  clean slate,

my mind needs and craves,

like glimpse of moments pass in front of my thoughts,

in rapid of minutes, in swiftness of seconds,

variable,

many ,

variable,

many,

many ,many...........

i am not in desire of anythng,

 but to fly away,

like a rocket does,

unseen of the travelling adventure,

never anticipatingf what moment comes in,

what second encaptures him,i want to fly away like this,

away from all bonds,

all religions,

all norms...

i am destined to fly, and its all pre- destined!!! 

hiramalik

i ran naked for i knew there is no one around for me to get embarassed in this vast warm desert...sky was clear ,blue,clean and Sun was in rage.... I shouted n my voice echoed back to me,whispering me words in my own strange voice... I screamed my name, n my name was strange to me...who m i? Where i stand''? Do i exist? Do i exist in real world? Or i m a shadow of my real statue' ? What is reality? Do reality actually is a reality? How can i differentiate between a dream n reality? M i dreaming? My senses went out of control n my intellectual lost the reign...my body galloped, i jerked my soles burning but still senseless, n i ran -yes i ran, like a painter stroke on clean canvass, i ran like a madman, wdout ny fear of consequences, without any desire of destination, without any thought of being mocked at....

Silence, come inside me,
Breathe my breath, speake my speeches,
I dance like a madman, n my fingers entagles the universe,
On tiptoes, i swirl, in silence, i feel!
World is a beauty, n my heart is forgetting each n every played beat,
The virginity of each lyrics,i m leaving behind,
Loosing its heat..
N sparks are turning to ashes, my mind burning little by little,
My soul yearning slow n slow,
N i m holding onto the last pace,
To burn down or fly away,
As,
Skies n earths r swirling again on speed,
N i m running short of words,in this little seed!

To my spiritual teacher Paulo Coelho, n for his new book ''Aleph''....

Hiramalik

angels of dark will bid u bye

O the god of earth,
Fire in ur heart is upsetting me now,
The spark i bargained is extinguuishing,
And my land is getting barren day by day...
O the father of sky,
I am thirsty for ur rage,
My lap is shaky for the tear drops in turn,
And world is sleeping in oak of ignorance!
O the healer of hearts, my soul smouldering the innate desire,
And this flame is darkening my eye sight,
The pain is mounting high and high,
and pleading for the thunders of winters in heart of summers, Sigh!
And kiss my lips, for i am leaving forever,
In this dark shield of night, with fierce winds of north,
Light will reveal itself soon
And angels of dark will bid u buy!

Hiramalik

possibly if!

i were able to drown in an ocean, and achieve all my sorrows back in turn of happiness in debt!

small stars!

shining like an armour in pitch dark night, and its un-ending in heart of sleeper,tired of sleeping in honour of old forgotten moments!

borrow

streets are crowded with another world, and homes are flowing hopefully to the burning volcanoe!